1. |
Tahoe Drive
04:53
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Drive up to the lake
Crimson morning – I'm barely awake
Radio is making you cry
I'm in heaven on the passenger side
Burn the tape down again
Turn it over – I'm already in
Move like the lava lamps
Lining the shelf back when you were the champ
Prove, you had nothing to prove
You had nothing to prove to me
Burn the tape down again
Turn it over – I'm already in
It's crazy listening back
To the albums that we shared full fucking blast
And it's something listening through
Music that I will forever retrace back to you
And it's painful listening, playing it over and over again
Turning the time back and freezing
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2. |
Alienating
03:32
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I wasn’t different, I was just disguised in plastic wrap
And I wasn’t listening, I was just devising a way out back
Tangled in see-through strands
Binding my hands
But I wasn’t ugly in the way that I was so convinced
I was just struggling, wrapping up a wound in trapeze strings
I made backflips sing
But I was reeling
I think I’ve been alienating back the people that know me
When you see me walking around you won’t get my mask
But the fear underneath
I wasn’t early, I was not a bird calling out the day
I was a stoner, blocking out the noon ’til it melts away
Like a rocket pop in my sleep
Slowly dripping
I think I’ve been alienating back the people that know me
When you see me walking around you won’t get my mask
But the fear underneath
I think I’ve been alienating the people that love me
When you see me back at the house I just wanna be - honestly
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3. |
Self Care
02:16
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I've heard all my life: the high comes if you live right
Thick sweat to purify, rinsing the mold
But I don't want the light to better me
I don't want control
Rethink everything you know
The world is a matrix of boxes that you can tick
You're getting off on it, onto my phone
But I don't want the load you've given me
I don't wanna swallow
Rethink everything you know
Please, rethink everything you know
Rethink everything you know
Please, rethink everything you know
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4. |
I Can't Move
04:11
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I don't know what I want
I just stopped in the middle of 101
Put my hands on my face
And get ready
For the traffic to overrun
I am all the way down
I am all the way down, under the bottom
Scanning around at the cars
See through the roof from afar
I can't move
I don't know how I got here
I was just drinking coffee with parents in the sun
I was feeling so brave for the moves that I made
Suddenly I'm feeling more than afraid
I am all the way down
I am all the way down, under the bottom
Scanning around at the cars
See through the roof from afar
I can't move
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5. |
Falling Ash
04:54
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Driving out the same way you came in
The place was basically kindling
Vintage wood filled with oxygen
Breathing in the wake of a dream
Falling ash it seems
We should leave before our lungs get diseased
The view of the bay will always
Float the attic in the back of my brain
Waking up in a house you technically own
Where you fled the smoke
Right before the staging company sold
Creepy shine of the realty agent's face
Was it all a mistake?
Showing your girl the place that she'd come of age?
The view of the bay
I will always remember feeling so wholly amazed
That you could create heaven
In your family and the life that you made
Watching your home light
Standing in file on the freeway up on high
Watching in stunned quiet
I was thinking I could move
I could not if I tried
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6. |
Tiki Torches
03:44
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You, you weren't even trying
When you said that you were miles away
Speak like that again
Hear it echo off the ceiling
Dad and mom
You have the world under your thumb
And it's really heavy
As I'm sitting underneath
I said to you last night
That I wanted to die
I know you weren't ready
I just wanna feel all right
I just wanna feel alive
I just wanna be a part of the tribe
Like I wasn't already
I just wanna make it better...
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7. |
Volt Switch
04:23
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Unspoken rules, electric fences
I do what you want and I'm slowly wearing down
My thoughts just tripped your defenses
No I've got battery acid in my mouth
And it's foaming up right over your glass
Melting metal
I hang my head upside down
And everything looks exactly as it's meant
The static electric makes my hair stand up
I'm looking like a mad scientist
I'm coming up to stand inside myself
And I'm cutting down the lines that shock me to hell
When you told me my life was a lie, I believed it
And now I'm switching voltage
Feet on the ground like a conduit
Feet on the ground, I'm a conduit for lightning
Feet on the ground again
I'm foaming up, right over the glass
Fucking metal
I'm coming up to stand inside myself
And I'm cutting down the lines that shock me to hell
When you told me my life was a lie, I believed it
And now I'm switching voltage
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8. |
Jenny
03:31
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What's the matter, Jenny?
Is there something on your mind?
I've been staring at your engine light
I can't lose you, Jenny
You're the reason I'm so wide
Out of range of my conventional life
Slow down, let's just slow this down
I was so afraid of this, now I'm freaking out
Drove across the country
You and me were intimate
No one else has heard me screaming
And then I nearly died
I've come that close a couple times
Always when you get me feeling
Slow down, let's just slow this down
I was so afraid of this, now I'm freaking out
Slow down, let's just slow this down
I was so afraid of this, now I'm freaking out
Slow down, Jenny
I don't wanna die alone here
Slow down, I don't wanna die alone
I just wanna make it home
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9. |
SelfSame
04:36
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If fear is information
I’m learning like I’m a som
Wood barrels lining the basement
Still couldn’t tell you what wine it was
I said what I want into a canyon and walked on
I said what I want, then I got lost
I think I have the right
direction if not the mind of someone you admire
A guru; a spirit guide
Better now, or better then
Selfsame thread weaving
Better now, or better then
All I know… I’ll keep moving
Depression is information
You’d think I know enough now
I wrote the book on redemption
Then saw the cover was upside down
I said what I need alone in my car– hell, I screamed
I said what I need; it felt funny
I think I have the right
direction if not the mind of someone you admire
A guru; a spirit guide
Better now, or better then
Selfsame thread weaving
Better now, or better then
All I know… I’ll keep moving
I think I have the right
intention if not the life of someone you admire
A therapist, a Ted Talk guy
Better off, or better than
Selfsame person in the end
Better now, I think, but I don’t know
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